It's been a while since ii got down to pen down the thoughts like THIS. I've completely switched to writing poems now, which is a good thing, ii feel.
But still, ii dunno why ..at times ii feel that writing poems isn't helping much.
Life's been great lately. Not too much socialising, not too much of drama and chaos is life.
"The more you stay with yourself, the happier you get."
^ the quote made me fall in love with it. Only until ii started socialising again :P
I spent 3 months, not talking to friends much, trying to devote more time to studies. Not that I've been upset or anything, just been outta mood.
But recently, there's this guy ii talked to. Funnily enough, he said things that made me wonder about various things.
The first question - How can anyone judge a person in a very short span of time without knowing a thing about them ?
I never dared judging anyone, not even after knowing them for long. How could one possibly know what kinda person the other one is. It takes ages to figure out that. But yea, most of the people ii know of, don't take long in judging and they, themselves, on the other hand hate being judged.
People : /
ii wonder if i'll ever be able to understand the concept of expecting a LOT in return when yew have nothing to offer.
Second question - Why do people shut themselves out ?
After reading numerous novels & writings, ii know very well that shutting ourselves out causes more harm than anything else. But then again, does a human have any control over that ?
The ''experiences'' teach us to do things, to behave in ways that we've never thought of.
Shutting out doesn't seem much big of an effort, tbh.
All it needs is a little hurt, little hatred and loads of betrayal around. And in today's world, that doesn't seem that big a problem.
Friends don't give a second thought before spreading ugly rumors, loved one's don't take a second in taking them for granted, world doesn't take a second to puch them down, under the ground.
It hurts. Being betrayed by friends, lover, yourself. Even though yew don't lose faith in friendship and love, because there are a few people who have managed to keep the faith alive in yew, yew have certainly lost all hope in it's divine purity.
I have, atleast. And it's not a very good feeling, ii must say. You miss out on the joys of taking risks by trusting friends, falling in love, having fun.
Life is tough. Noone taught us anything about how to lead the life without being much affected by the betrayal. And betrayal, causes a person to shut themselves. It's noone's fault, as we realise but then, it's everyone's fault.
Taking a fall like, hundred times have made me come to a point where ii don't share much about my life. Talking about past doesn't make sense to me anymore. Talking about things that still hurt only makes yew weak & talking about things that don't matter anymore - and don't hurt - doesn't make sense. Then why not just let the past be ?
Still, when yew come across a new person, all you wanna is, their past. Why ? Probably becase it gives a new insight to that person or probably it's just a way of telling the person, 'that even though your past is of no business to me, just to keep up the conversation, ii don't mind listening to that crap as well.'
But ii don't want either of those to happen. I know my past is of noone's concern, hence ii don't talk about it. That makes me talk even less.
And my silence is often misjudged as my non-willingness to talk / attempt to shut myself out / not trusting / arrogance / attitude et al.
Maybe this way, other's are said to shut themselves out too.
In order to Listen, you need to be Silent. And when you listen, that's when yew truly get to know a person.
Silence may have aroused due to bad situations, but it's a part of me now, as it becomes a part of many other people. And silence, isn't bad.
It helps me analyse what's good & what's not. Though ii have to go a LONG way to discover more about it, but ii have already started.
Sometimes ii wish, life would have been little easier if ii hadn't been through so much. And even though when ii see people around myself, suffering a LOT ore than ii have, ii feel sad for them too. But also, ii feel proud, knowing that ii had an opportunity to get to know a person who went through a lot but still managed to emerge as a strong person. I guess it's time to be proud of myself too. Knowing that ii have not always been surrounded by the best of people, but ii managed to evolve myself, turn out to be a person ii can be proud of.
But still, ii don't share my insights. All I can say about the whole thing is,
But still, ii dunno why ..at times ii feel that writing poems isn't helping much.
Life's been great lately. Not too much socialising, not too much of drama and chaos is life.
"The more you stay with yourself, the happier you get."
^ the quote made me fall in love with it. Only until ii started socialising again :P
I spent 3 months, not talking to friends much, trying to devote more time to studies. Not that I've been upset or anything, just been outta mood.
But recently, there's this guy ii talked to. Funnily enough, he said things that made me wonder about various things.
The first question - How can anyone judge a person in a very short span of time without knowing a thing about them ?I never dared judging anyone, not even after knowing them for long. How could one possibly know what kinda person the other one is. It takes ages to figure out that. But yea, most of the people ii know of, don't take long in judging and they, themselves, on the other hand hate being judged.
People : /
ii wonder if i'll ever be able to understand the concept of expecting a LOT in return when yew have nothing to offer.
Second question - Why do people shut themselves out ?
After reading numerous novels & writings, ii know very well that shutting ourselves out causes more harm than anything else. But then again, does a human have any control over that ?
The ''experiences'' teach us to do things, to behave in ways that we've never thought of.
Shutting out doesn't seem much big of an effort, tbh.
All it needs is a little hurt, little hatred and loads of betrayal around. And in today's world, that doesn't seem that big a problem.
Friends don't give a second thought before spreading ugly rumors, loved one's don't take a second in taking them for granted, world doesn't take a second to puch them down, under the ground.
It hurts. Being betrayed by friends, lover, yourself. Even though yew don't lose faith in friendship and love, because there are a few people who have managed to keep the faith alive in yew, yew have certainly lost all hope in it's divine purity.
I have, atleast. And it's not a very good feeling, ii must say. You miss out on the joys of taking risks by trusting friends, falling in love, having fun.
Life is tough. Noone taught us anything about how to lead the life without being much affected by the betrayal. And betrayal, causes a person to shut themselves. It's noone's fault, as we realise but then, it's everyone's fault.
Taking a fall like, hundred times have made me come to a point where ii don't share much about my life. Talking about past doesn't make sense to me anymore. Talking about things that still hurt only makes yew weak & talking about things that don't matter anymore - and don't hurt - doesn't make sense. Then why not just let the past be ?
Still, when yew come across a new person, all you wanna is, their past. Why ? Probably becase it gives a new insight to that person or probably it's just a way of telling the person, 'that even though your past is of no business to me, just to keep up the conversation, ii don't mind listening to that crap as well.'
But ii don't want either of those to happen. I know my past is of noone's concern, hence ii don't talk about it. That makes me talk even less.
And my silence is often misjudged as my non-willingness to talk / attempt to shut myself out / not trusting / arrogance / attitude et al.
Maybe this way, other's are said to shut themselves out too.
In order to Listen, you need to be Silent. And when you listen, that's when yew truly get to know a person.
Silence may have aroused due to bad situations, but it's a part of me now, as it becomes a part of many other people. And silence, isn't bad.
It helps me analyse what's good & what's not. Though ii have to go a LONG way to discover more about it, but ii have already started.
Sometimes ii wish, life would have been little easier if ii hadn't been through so much. And even though when ii see people around myself, suffering a LOT ore than ii have, ii feel sad for them too. But also, ii feel proud, knowing that ii had an opportunity to get to know a person who went through a lot but still managed to emerge as a strong person. I guess it's time to be proud of myself too. Knowing that ii have not always been surrounded by the best of people, but ii managed to evolve myself, turn out to be a person ii can be proud of.
But still, ii don't share my insights. All I can say about the whole thing is,
When someone accuses yew of shutting yourself out and not interacting, you just think "sometimes, life brings you to such crossroads where yew feel smiling is easier than explaining what went wrong."
2 comments:
lovely post :)
This particular sentence made me laugh: "All it needs is a little hurt, little hatred and loads of betrayal around. And in today's world, that doesn't seem that big a problem."
and sometimes it's in people's in-built nature to judge others without knowing them. there's nothing wrong with judging, it's just how you judge others, in what ways and on what criterias...
(Sigh) great people in the world, i tell u!!! (sigh again!)
true ..
people's nature is something we gotta live with.
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