~ burial descends

It starts off with a *sigh,

followed by the emotions making me high

Sometimes, ii am speechless and there's emptiness in head,

and other times, its like the war of the dead

Its been so long, far too retentive,

our memories ii possess, but i've been so repulsive

No matter how much i deny,

ii have to agree that no one ever, that much made me cry

The way yew treated me, the way yew made me giggle,

the way we used to love and the way we used to fiddle

The endless talks we seemed to have, endless care we had

its those special moments together, that makes me even more sad

All day all night long, we used to talk and always doodle,

you were a gift in my life, yew were my poodle

Time seemed to stop when we were together, forever

ii wanted it to continue longer than EVER

But now ii know it was all cooked up in my mind,

because for yew, ii was just like the rest of the kind

I never meant anything to yew, the distance we travelled in unison,

in a matter of sometime, our friendship became your poison

Whenever ii listen to 'When you look me in the eye', ii cry,

tears don't seem to leave my lashes dry

Like sunshine in the rain, yew made my whole world fall apart,

yew have a life now, of which ii am no part

Ever since yew left, my life has been dark,

ii am devoid of love and with it the spark

Your love was like the rain on my earth,

ii guess like the drying seas, time yew had for me was always in dearth

In the depths of darkness, ii submerge

cz nothing seems right, now nothing can converge

God knows, every drop of water that fell from my eye was like a golden tear,

cz only yew had the light to make my darkness disappear

Since now ii don't have yew in my life, not the light,

grimness never leaves me, its grip is increasingly tight

I thought we were very close, that's all ii could ever perceive,

repugnant as it might be, ii guess it's time for me to believe

even if ii said the right thing, if ii said the wrong,

no matter what ii do, yew will always be gone

I took a fall, my heart did break,

it was a huge one, trusting yew was a mistake

But anything ii say or anyway ii behave,

ii know it only irrirates yew, its my absence for which yew crave
To see yew smile, ii bury my feelings deep 

as this cold night falls, ii pull the blanket of silence over me and drift to sleep.

Fainted Paint ~

Your face, a perfect painting        

 

sadly in my memory, itz fainting                           
But back in my subconscious mind
its held in a piece totally bind
You were the silly, mature and honest guy
who held me tight when I needed to cry
You were the smile on my face
that's now faded away, to my amaze
You used to be my shadow
everywhere in love, you used to follow
As your no longer around
I don't understand why am profound
You come and go so fast
like a wind, over and past
the stabbing pain remains, against the grain
Because I know you'll come back, to leave me again