2010, Another Year Passed

A random question my mind asked
as the year 2010 has almost passed
if ii get a chance to go back and change
what in my past would ii want in exchange                                 


I think and think and think
with ugly moments my mind is occupied upto the brink
ii think about the times ii lied
times when not upto my potential ii tried


When ii sat back and simply cursed
my life, my fate - in complete darkness it was immersed
the times when ii hurt my closed ones
the times when ii was hurt in many turns


I think if its only in year 2010 that ii made mistakes
But then ii realise, it my whole life, last 18 years, that ii never had what it takes
I failed to be good daughter, a good student, a good sister, a good friend
lots of disappointments my close ones had to fend,in frustration all ii did was to offend


And amidst all the bad times, ii also think about when
ii was happy and cheerful, life was good then, that was the time
when ii had committed no crime

I see myself in mirror and smile                                                                    
maybe it was for best what happened because today ii am docile
it were the hard times, the bad moments, the failures that made me strong
to life's challenges, ii became sharp like a prong


Through the hardships,ii evolved to became strong and ii felt my confident profuse
As the 2010 passed, ii felt a fresh aura diffuse
into the ambiance
my tears evaporated with a dulcet incense


Another year of my life that passed, wasn't so bad after all
out of the bed, ii decide to crawl
looking at the twinkling stars, standing under the starry night
ii decide to hold my faith up tight


A sigh escapes my mouth
the bad thought, ii feel went for south
As the year 2010 passed, a random answer to a random question ii found
ii saw a new sun, the ray of hope and ii heard my heart pounding with a happy sound !