Exploration ..

Well, I saw this thing randomly while browsing blogs. It was like, the person had written 25 points bout herself - her like, dislikes and anything that came to mind.

Having nothing better to do, I thought of giving it a shot myself. So here goes 25 points about me ..!!

1. I am obsessed with black color.
2. I love collecting greeting cards.
3. When I was young, I always dreamt of being a terrorist and helping reduce growing population and also loved the fact that they had awesome guns.
4. I simply hate shopping.
5. I love reading books in my free time.
6. I am not a great fan of humor.
7. I love staying alone. Rather, crowd bores me.
8. I have always loved to explore different sides of myself.
9. I had always wanted to be elder than my brother and make him realise how it feels to be dominated.
10. I am not a great painter but sometimes I come up with beautiful drawings that are hard for me to believe are mine.
11. I do write stuff. Like poems and all but I still am not near anywhere to being creative. I am pretty dull as for that matter.
12. I love playing. My sport changes after a confined period of time though I have been sticking to bball for a long time now.
13. I am huge fan of soccer and even guys who love soccer. I love having conversations on this topic.
14. If allowed to write, I can go on and on with random topics.
15. I don't like being admired in face. I do like it but somehow I get uncomfortable.
16. I am really straight forward.
17. I have always wanted to stand out in crowd but I am too lazy to try.
18. I have bad temper and often hurt my loved ones because of this.
19. I am one of those who get inspired easily but then in sometime, the passion within fades away.
20. I don't like listening music when am low. It gives me space to think. Music is my soul though.
21. I dream to go on adventure sports and have a thrilling experience.
22. I love dark chocolate and choco cookies.
23. I have always fancied watching cartoons and hated watching serials.
24. I am pretty much arrogant to people and don't even give a damn.
25. Lastly, I love the way I am. Inspite of so many trials to change myself (read : I realli have), I am unable to do so and now, I have given up on it.

Jeez, that required brains. O.o

lol..well, now that I have killed so much time, I hafta get back to some work. And that's definitely not on pc.

Peace \/

little mood swing timbaland

Well, I have been wondering about my life. The sudden sways in mood, a sunken feeling that out of nowhere creeps into me and makes me flinch. A moment, I am happy, laughing and singing and then, the next moment, I am quiet trying to grasp the sudden pain in heart. Still trying hard to figure out the reason behind the pain, I sit on couch and decide to try and mould my words so that expressing myself becomes any more creative. So this is something i land upon -

Suddenly on this road

am all alone with so much load

world is moving so fast

forgetting about all the past

everyone is leaving me behind

forgettyn d promisez they made to my mind

my heart is filled with sorrow

love is something I can't borrow

no clue why everyone is turning their back

wanna know what went wrong and what I lack

I can do anything to make this right

all I need is a chance so bright

am dying to be with someone

someone who cares like noone

wanna share my feel with a person

but who can I trust when everyone is fearsome

help me get over it

cz I wanna survive this polluted mist

Sudden collapse of humor

So, this is what I came up with. I stay cheerful, happy and smiling all the time. But somehow the sunken feeling got this out of me. I am still to figure out what I am trying to tell myself. I have been writting poems for a while now. I have written many but something always kept me from telling poeple about my writtings. I still am not comfortable with putting my poems here but then at the same time, it feels good to pour out your heart to someone. Though i know, here, I might not know that someone but I guess, I prefer it this way.